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  ‘Tiger. Tiger. Tiger. There’s a tiger and a baby. Help!’

  It was a great yell. It was the best. He’d put his heart into it, and it sounded for all the world like a tiger was about to pounce, and a baby, too. But the end of his yell was drowned out.

  The coach they’d come in was huge, a two-level touring affair. It had a massive air-conditioning unit, and even when idling it was noisy. Now, as it started to move and went through its ponderous gear changes, it was truly deafening.

  Gina heard just one of CJ’s yells before the sound of the coach took over. The second and third yells were drowned out as the coach turned out of the parking lot, growing louder and louder until nothing could be heard at all.

  Gina made to stand-she made to get herself out in front of the coach to stop it-but then there was a tiny choking sound from the baby. Her eyes flew back to him. Was she imagining it?

  No.

  If he was choking… His airway must still be slightly blocked. She had to get his trachea clear.

  Once more she lifted the baby and turned him face down, and her fingers searched his mouth. The coach was forgotten. She desperately needed equipment. There might well be liquor or meconium stuck in his throat or on his vocal cords. How to clear his tiny airway without tracheal suction?

  She shook him, carefully, carefully, supporting his neck as if it were the most precious thing in the world.

  He choked again.

  Something dislodged-a fragment of gunk-and she had it clear in an instant.

  She turned him back over and breathed for him again.

  This time his chest rose higher.

  It fell.

  It rose-all by itself.

  Again.

  Again.

  She was breathing with him, willing him to breathe with her. And he was. Wonderfully-magically-he was.

  She wiped his mouth again, using her T-shirt, and then searched her bag for a facecloth. She was cradling him against her now. She had to get him warm. Once she had him breathing, heat loss was his biggest enemy.

  At least the outside air was warm.

  She had to get help.

  The coach was gone.

  As if on cue, CJ appeared back from his tiger yelling. ‘I think they heard me,’ he told her, uncertain whether to be proud or not. His expression said he was definitely uncertain about the baby his mother was paying such attention to. ‘One of the ladies on the coach waved to me as it went past.’

  Fantastic. She could hear it in the distance, rumbling down the unmade road, starting its long trip to Cairns.

  To the airport. To America. Home.

  She couldn’t think of that now. All that mattered was this tiny baby. His breathing was becoming less laboured, she thought, or was it wishful thinking? She wanted oxygen so badly.

  She didn’t have it. She had to concentrate on the things she could do.

  Swiftly she checked the baby’s umbilical cord. It looked as if it had been ripped from the placenta. Now that his heart was beating strongly, the cord was starting to ooze.

  How long had the cord been cut? she asked herself, a bit confused. Obstetrics wasn’t her strong point, but surely the cord shouldn’t still be bleeding?

  How much blood had he lost?

  Where was the nearest hospital to Gunyamurra?

  She couldn’t depend on a hospital. She was all this baby had.

  She tugged the drawstring from her backpack and tied the umbilicus with care, then hauled the backpack wide and found her own windcheater-a soft, old garment that she loved. It’d do as a blanket.

  Once again she checked his breathing, scarcely allowing herself to hope that this frail little scrap of humanity might survive.

  But as if he’d read her mind and was determined to prove her wrong, he opened his eyes.

  And even CJ was caught.

  ‘It’s a real baby,’ CJ breathed, awed at this transformation from what must have seemed a lifeless body to a living thing, and Gina could only gaze down at the baby in her arms and agree.

  More. There were no words for this moment. For this miracle. She was suddenly holding a little person in her arms. A baby boy. A child who’d one day grow to be a man, because CJ had found him and her lifesaving techniques had blessedly worked.

  How could missing a coach possibly compare to this? How could being stuck in this outlandish place possibly matter?

  He was so tiny. Four, maybe five pounds? Premature? He had to be. His fingernails had scarcely started to form and he was so small.

  His lips were still tinged with blue. Cyanosis? The tips of his fingers were still blue as well, and she started to worry all over again. As he’d started to breathe, his little body had suffused with colour, but now…

  She checked his fingers and toes with care, trying not to expose him any more than she had to. It was a hot day, so the wind was warm against the baby’s skin. How long had he been exposed?

  Maybe the warm wind had helped save his life.

  But there were still those worrying traces of cyanosis. His heart wasn’t working at a hundred per cent.

  It wasn’t his breathing, she thought. He was gazing up, wide-eyed, as if wondering where on earth he was, and his breathing seemed to be settling.

  So why the skin blueness?

  She wanted medical back-up. She wanted it now.

  ‘How will we get home?’ CJ asked, and she held the baby close and tried to make herself think.

  ‘We need to find someone to help us.’

  ‘Everyone’s gone,’ CJ said.

  ‘Surely not everyone.’

  But maybe everyone had. Gina’s heart sank. The rodeo itself had finished almost an hour ago. A group of country and western musicians from down on the coast had booked the coach to transport their gear. They’d played at the closing ceremony, then organised the coach to stay longer, giving them time to pack up.

  The timing meant that the crowd had dispersed. The rodeo had taken place miles from the nearest settlement-which itself wasn’t much of a settlement. There’d been mobile food vans and a mobile pub, but they’d gone almost before the last event.

  CJ might well be right.

  ‘Someone must be here,’ she said, trying to sound assured. She tucked the baby underneath her T-shirt, against her skin, hoping the warmth of her skin would do the same job as an incubator. ‘Come on, CJ. Let’s go find someone.’

  CJ was looking at her as if he wasn’t quite sure whether he wanted to accompany her or not. ‘Is the baby OK?’

  ‘I think so.’ She hoped so.

  ‘You’ve got blood on your shirt.’

  She had. She grimaced down at her disgusting T-shirt but she wasn’t thinking of her appearance. She was thinking of how much blood the baby had lost.

  Why had he bled so much? And newborn babies had so little… He couldn’t afford to have lost this much.

  He whimpered a little against her and she felt a tiny surge of reassurance. And something more.

  Once upon a time-four and a half years ago-she’d held CJ like this, and she’d made the vows she found were forming again in her heart right now. She’d loved CJ’s daddy so much. Cal had taught her what loving could be, and she’d pass that loving on to CJ.

  And even though Cal no longer came into it-even though Cal was no part of her life and had nothing to do with this baby-she found herself voicing those same vows. She’d protect this baby, come what may.

  What mother could have left him here? she wondered. How much trouble must a woman be suffering to drag herself away from her newborn child?

  She thought of how distressed she’d been when CJ had been born-how much she’d longed for Cal and how impossible it had seemed that she raise her son without him. But the bond to her tiny scrap of a son had been unbreakable, regardless.

  He’d been her link to Cal.

  She’d thought of Cal so much as her son had been born, and suddenly, achingly, she thought of him now.

  But it was crazy. She couldn’t think of Ca
l. Neither could she think about the coach growing further away by the minute. Her ticket out of here-away from Cal for ever-was gone.

  She needed to find help.

  ‘Come on, CJ. There must be someone still around.’ She cradled the baby with one hand, took CJ’s hand with the other and went to find out.

  The rodeo had been held in a natural arena where a ring of hills formed a natural showground. There was scrub and bushland on the hills but the rodeo ground was a huge, dusty area that now looked barren and deserted.

  But not everyone had gone. As Gina and CJ crossed the parking lot back into the rodeo grounds, they found one solitary person-an elderly, native Australian. Gina had seen him before, working on the sidelines during the rodeo. Was he some sort of ground manager? He must be. He was staring around at the piles of litter and scratching his head in disgust. As he saw Gina and CJ, he shoved back his hat and smiled, obviously pleased to be distracted from the mess.

  ‘G’day. Come to help me clean up?’

  ‘We’ve found a baby,’ Gina told him.

  He stared. His smile faded.

  ‘Um…say again?’

  ‘Someone has abandoned a baby in the bush. I have him here.’ She motioned to the bulge beneath her stained T-shirt. ‘We need medical help. Fast.’

  ‘You’ll be kidding me.’

  ‘I’m not joking.’ She outlined what had happened and the man’s jaw dropped almost to his ankles.

  ‘You’re saying some woman just dropped her bundle behind the rocks-and left it for dead?’

  ‘She may have thought he was dead already,’ Gina told him. ‘I had trouble getting him to breathe.’

  The man cast an uneasy glance at the bulge under her shirt. He took a step back, as if maybe he was facing a lunatic. ‘So he’s under there? A baby.’

  ‘He’s under there. Can you take us to the nearest hospital?’

  The man stared at her for a moment longer, took another step backward and then motioned uncertainly to an ancient truck parked nearby.

  ‘There’s no other way of getting out of here than that. How did you get here?’

  ‘Coach.’

  ‘The coach has left.’

  ‘Yes,’ Gina said, trying to hold her impatience in check. ‘Will you take us to the hospital? We need help.’

  ‘Nearest clinic’s at Gunyamurra, twenty miles from here,’ he told her, still really doubtful. ‘But there’s no one there now. The Wetherbys and the Gunnings-the two families that live near there and the workers on their stations-they were all here today so there won’t be a clinic operating. Maybe you need a doctor.’

  ‘Yes, please.’ To tell him she was a doctor herself would only confuse matters.

  He cast another glance at her bulge. His mouth tightened as if he was becoming sure of his lunatic theory.

  ‘How can I contact medical help?’ she snapped, and he blinked.

  ‘We had the Remote Rescue Service on call during the rodeo,’ he told her, totally bemused. ‘They flew Joseph Long out with a broken leg an hour or so back. That was near the end with only the novelty events left, so they didn’t come back. Word is that they’re short a couple of doctors back at base.’

  ‘I need a doctor now,’ Gina told him. She was still holding CJ’s hand tight and using her other hand to cradle the baby. But the baby didn’t seem to be moving. He was so limp.

  He couldn’t die. He mustn’t.

  ‘I s’pose I could call them back.’ There was another doubtful look at her bloodstained T-shirt-a look that said he accepted there was blood and maybe there had been a baby but he wasn’t too sure that he mightn’t be dealing with an axe murderer. ‘You sure it really is a baby? A live baby?’

  She released CJ and held up the T-shirt-just for a moment, just so he could see.

  They all looked at the bulge.

  At the windcheater-wrapped baby.

  He was surely real. He was surely a baby. He was incredibly tiny-more, he was incredibly beautiful. His crumpled little face was now becoming the flushed crimson of most newborns. His eyes were wide, dazed and unfocussed.

  And he moved. It was a slight movement, but he definitely moved. He whimpered a little and a hand-a hand the size of a man’s fingernail-broke free from his makeshift blanket.

  Gina didn’t say anything. She tucked the little hand back into the warmth of her windcheater, and she waited for this man to make his decision. She needed his help so much.

  And it seemed that she had it. The man stared down and his face twisted into an expression she could scarcely read,

  ‘Will you look at that?’ he whispered. ‘He’s just like mine were at that age.’ He stared down at the baby for a moment longer and then he looked up at Gina. His old eyes met hers and held.

  ‘You really found him?’

  ‘We found him. We’re tourists on the coach but we found him just as the coach was leaving. I’ve been trying to get him to breathe. So far, so good, but if he’s to live we need your help. We need outside help. Fast.’

  ‘I’m moving,’ he told her, and he turned and started to stride swiftly across the dusty arena to his truck.

  He took three long strides-and then he started to run.

  ‘Mommy,’ CJ said, in the tone of a patient man whose patience was being tested to the limit.

  ‘Yes?’

  ‘I still need to go to the toilet.’

  ‘Cal?’

  He jumped. Cal had been placing a scalpel in the steriliser, but Charles’s voice from right behind him startled him into dropping it. He swore, then stooped to retrieve it with a sigh. ‘Will you cut that out?’ he demanded of his boss. ‘Quit oiling that damned wheelchair so we have a chance.’

  Charles grinned. Charles Wetherby was the medical director of Crocodile Creek Medical Centre. He’d been confined to a wheelchair since a shooting accident when he’d been eighteen, but his paraplegia didn’t stop him being a fine doctor and a medical director who missed nothing. Charles knew his silent approaches startled his staff but he didn’t mind. It never hurt his young doctors to believe their medical director might be right beside them at any time.

  Not that he had any need to check on Cal. Callum Jamieson was one of the best doctors they’d ever been blessed with.

  Normally doctors didn’t stay at Crocodile Creek for too long. The work was hard, the place was one of the most remote in the world and doctors tended to treat it almost as a mission. They spent a couple of years here working with the Remote Rescue team, they got their need for excitement out of their system and then they disappeared.

  Not Cal. He’d come four years ago and had made no attempt to move. There was something holding him, Charles had decided long before this. Something that didn’t make him want to face the real world. Woman trouble? Charles didn’t know for sure what the whole story was, but he knew more than Cal ever admitted-and he’d met Gina. For now, though, he wasn’t asking questions. Cal was a fine surgeon, and he went that extra step with patients. He really cared. Also, Cal was more gentle and painstaking with the indigenous people than any of the younger doctors who struggled with-and often didn’t care about-their culture. Cal was invaluable to this Remote Rescue Service and Charles was deeply grateful that he had him.

  Especially now.

  ‘I need you in the chopper,’ he told him.

  ‘Trouble?’

  ‘Out at the rodeo.’

  ‘Didn’t Christina and Mike just bring someone in?’

  ‘Yeah. Joseph Long, with a fractured femur. You’d think kids would have something better to do than to risk life and limb sitting on a steer that doesn’t want to be sat on.’

  ‘How old were you when you got shot pig-shooting?’ Cal asked mildly. ‘Eighteen? Don’t tell me. Joseph’s…what? Eighteen? You’re telling me that kids should learn a lesson from you and stop being risk-takers?’

  ‘Don’t play the moral bit on me.’ Charles’s craggy features twisted into a wry grin. There weren’t many people who could joke with Charles abo
ut his background, but Cal had been around long enough to become a firm friend. ‘Just get on that chopper,’ he told him. ‘Fast.’

  ‘What’s up.’

  ‘Newborn. Breathing difficulties.’

  Cal came close to dropping his scalpel again. ‘A newborn at the rodeo?’

  ‘There’s a woman there says she found him.’

  ‘A woman?’

  ‘Hey, I don’t know any more than you do,’ Charles said, exasperated. ‘I know it sounds crazy and if I could, I’d be in the air right now, finding out what’s going on. But Pete Sargent-the rodeo groundsman-has radioed in, saying there’s a baby and a woman and for some reason they don’t match. He says the woman found the baby. The baby’s certainly in trouble and he wants a doctor out there fast. Mike’s refuelling the chopper as we speak. You’re the only doctor available. So what are you standing here for?’

  Gina was just about frantic.

  The blue tinge to the baby’s fingertips and lips was becoming more and more pronounced. Cyanosis in a newborn had to mean heart trouble-but she didn’t even have a stethoscope. She was sitting in the rodeo judges’ stall and as a hospital ward it made a great judges’ stall. There was no equipment whatsoever.

  Pete-bless him-had taken CJ in charge. Out on the grounds the pair of them were collecting litter. Pete had supplied CJ with a pair of work-gloves that were longer than his arms, and CJ was enjoying himself immensely.

  That left Gina free to concentrate on the baby, but there was so little she could do. She kept his airway clear. She watched his breathing. She kept him against her skin, curving in so he had as much skin contact as possible, cradling any exposed parts into her soft, old windcheater. She was using herself as an incubator.

  She willed him to live, and she waited.

  Help came so slowly she thought she might well lose him.

  But finally the helicopter came in from the east, low and fast and loud. It hovered for a moment above the car park as if the pilot was checking for obstacles. But Pete had already checked. There was no problem with its landing, and before it reached the ground Gina was running toward it.